It was such an overwhelming and overwhelmingly perfect moment. I wish I could bottle that feeling!
Yesterday started out as one of the most stressful days I have ever had, and it ended as the most wonderful day of my life thus far.
My day began when I got up to use the bathroom at around 5am, and noticed a tiny amount of blood on the tissue. I tried to convince myself that this was normal and fine, even as I lay in bed analyzing every twinge and pull in my abdomen. Eventually, I gave up trying not to freak out and woke Vik up so that he could freak out with me.
Luckily, my first doctor’s appointment was scheduled for yesterday, so I only had to make it until 1:00 without having a total meltdown. I made it, but barely.
At the doctor’s office, I told the doctor what had happened and she said we would do an ultrasound just to see what was going on. As the blurry image came up on the screen, for a few horrifying seconds I did not see anything but an empty sac.
And then, the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life appeared on the screen. Our baby! There s/he was, just hanging out, with his/her tiny heart beating like a drum. A strong 150 beats per minute! It was truly the most miraculous thing I have ever seen! Words cannot even begin to adequately convey the rush of love/joy/relief I felt in that moment.
The doctor said that everything looked perfect and that our Little Bean is healthy and on track! Those words were music to my ears.
When the doctor left the room so that I could get dressed in private, Vik and I immediately started jumping up and down, crying (yes, even Vik), and babbling to each other about how beautiful and strong our baby was. It was such an overwhelming and overwhelmingly perfect moment. I wish I could bottle that feeling!
The doctor said that I am a week behind what we had calculated, which is fine by me, and that I will definitely deliver some time in March. We are going back in August for our second appointment, and for a dating ultrasound. Until then, we are just holding on to the memory of seeing our beautiful baby and his/her strong heartbeat.
For your viewing pleasure, here is Little Bean’s first photo:
- Little Bean at 7 Weeks, 1 Day
